Vision of a Crucifixion
I looked and behold there was a great crowd of people who were all focused towards a central point. At this central point was an opening in the crowd. They were all watching something in that opening. I felt compelled to move through the crowd towards what they were watching. As I broke into the opening a cross was lying on the ground and some men were in the process of nailing a man to this cross. I could not see the man’s face as one of the men who were nailing him to the cross was standing between me and the man’s face. I began moving around the circle of people to see who it was that was being crucified. As I moved around I was wondering what this man had done to warrant such an execution. Then I saw his face and I froze in my tracks, for the man on the cross was me. Then I knew that the crucifixion was completely justified. Then the vision ended and I pondered what its meaning could be.
YHWH came to me and spoke to me after this fashion. That in order to serve Him the way that He desires for us to serve Him, we must die completely to self, the self-life and the self-will. That day, I died.
1983